Oddly enough, within ten days of our first real snow, just when it finally started to feel like a real winter, we started to get our first signs of Spring. Within three days, the temp went from 15 degrees to over 60, and as the snow melted, tiny leaf buds began to appear on my block's trees. Although I greaty enjoyed our brief snowfalls, I'm not complaining because the warmth is great. I don't chalk this particular instance of schizophrenic weather up to global warming, I just think it's some random fluctuation and that's about it.... Mood swings happen, in people and in nature.
I received an extremely scary phone call this week, from a sheriff deputy in Marin County. The number was blocked so I didn't answer, and when I listened to the message he only said, "my name is deputy sheriff .........., please call me as soon as you can," followed by his number. I was just finishing eating chinese food in a restaurant downtown with some music associates, and I suddenly became extremely scared. I knew it had to be something bad, how could it be good? I was sure it had something to do with either my brother or my mom. Either she got killed in a car accident, or Pepi became horribly burned or killed on the job fighting a fire. I was afraid to call back, I didn't want to hear the news, and my body started to shake as my friends started to console me. We left the restaurant and I called my mom and thankfully she answered as if nothing was going on. I told her what happened and asked her if Pepi was working at the firehouse today and she said he was. Of course she started to freak out too. So I called Pepi's number but he didn't answer. I was sure something had happened to him.
So a few minutes later I fiinally got the nerve to call the sheriff, and it turns out that an old friend of mine from high school had gone missing, and he wanted to know if I had heard from her recently. Now, I wasn't exactly happy to hear this, it was terrible news, but when you think your mom or your brother may have died, I'll be honest, it was a bit of a relief.
So this has been one of those contemplative weeks, you know, where you think about how lucky you are to have what you have. It also made me think about war and try to imagine what it must be like to have one or more family members killed or maimed. The funny thing is, it doesn't take a war for something like that to happen. Any of us can die suddenly for any number of reasons. It is amazing we live in a world with these rules. But as I've read many times before, the purpose of death is probably to make us appreciate life more. Without the week, there is no weekend, without darkness there is no light, etc, etc. blah blah blah......